Love

Eat your
pleasure
out of
my gaze
and taste
my shape.
Follow me,
I'll lead you
out of this maze
for that is
my fate.
I'll kiss
for souls worth
and value
it's needs
But I wont be
in this alone
So walk beside me,
please.
Let's be
united and equal
Neither herders
Nor sheep.
A heart's made to hold
but we're asked
not to squeeze
Respect wants
Respect needs
Allow love
to be free
And we struggle
for freedom
is all that we seek.
But first
we must give
if we want
to receive.
Trust my touch
I can give you
that much
And expect that
I
will always
have love.
And if you
can meet me
On this
common ground
Than we both
shall be lucky
For what
we have found.

wiping buts

So this is dedicated
To emotions I've created
And it goes something
like this...

It's hard to resist you
But I have to insist
You don't look at me with those eyes
Or kiss me with that kiss
Because it's slowly becoming clear
What your intention is
And I'm not sure if I can
Maturely handle it.

I sleep with third eye skyward
Inside I see hearts and beats
You touch with no discretion
Careless who your soul might seek
And I dissect every lesson
I know where my faults lie
You have trouble with confessions
That is something you can't hide.

I'm losing motivation
Who are we, what is this game?
Have no fear I am not leaving
I'm just letting this link change.
And fade.

Popped

I played the carnival clown
blowing hot air into balloons
That would drift to the ground.
And I woke violently
From my waking sleep
Eye contact told a story
Of what he could teach...
So I breathe deep
Drift into my sleep
And accept that this wish
Has been only a dream.

Still frantically I grasp
Almost desperately
Involved and invested
In discovering this being

And the question holds
In what do I believe?
Because I'm feeling quite disowned
And rather publicly.

Take it or Leave it.

Leave it, Friend, because it never was yours.
Mother Culture is killing Mother Earth!
Believe in your heart how we're living is wrong.
Excessive consumption must not go on...
'What defines excess?' may be your query:
—more than or above what is necessary—!!
Now necessary too must be defined:
—what's needed in order to survive—
Ponder these concepts, and let us converse
Do you feel you are harming or healing the earth?

Liability

These faces I wear are more than two
But it's less than three
That means love to you.
So, I worry we'll stray
That's what humans do
When there's no satisfaction
In the things they pursue.

Full On Love Drug

Oh, love, that is my drug, my bodies desperate need for touch...I ask that you subside inside a box, for misery has cum. I believed in simple needs and primal instincts based on breed, for just a moment; caught and cleaned, reviewed, revisited, thus dirtied... I showed my face, the colors came, I dressed my cake, and then we ate... My heart believes, it is ok... but if a choice is to be made, I think I'll have nothing to say... for I don't believe, this is a choice for me, my love is complete ... regardless of the light it's underneath.

Holy fuck you, for real, I'm so serious

I knew you were a liar
But I didn't mind
Because I couldn't perceive
How your world could cross with mine
But you proved me wrong
With fucked up shit that you said
Taking things out of context
You are fucking with my head!!!
And I know, I'm not so virtuous,
In the place I have taken
But if you thought I wouldn't give a shit
well... you were mistaken
And I don't know if you realized
Just who you're fucking with...
But if you've paid any attention
You'd know that's not the smartest shit.
You see, I haven't got boundaries
And I wont respect urs
So if you thought you could avoid it
Your perception is absurd.
So lurk,
freak...
hide from the seeker
I will find you in your dreams
I'm just that kind of creeper.
Your life will never be the same
Since you decided to cross me
I'll hide inside your shadows darkness
I will infest your whole being.

Got Up This Morning, Didn't know Right from Wrong

She draws
Her lines
and asks I stay
inside this box,
but I can see right outside
and I decide to
pick the lock,
and though her voice is heavy
and I can feel it's tone
I escape out right into
the no trespassing zone.
And I feel my faith chase
The definition of mistake
Because it's never felt so satisfying
To sink in
to another face
But I can tell who really needs his space
And his words shake
Because he struggles to relate.
Still I can feel I really need my strength
Because the hooks caught
And I've swallowed the bait...
And I'm standing in line
For a whole world of pain.
So I have to walk away
Because he doesn't feel the same.

Discouraged

Persistent addition of anticipation will strengthen the chance that you'll fail to restrain from an honest desire to just get a taste of the apple so sinfully within your embrace. And this is where greed is a hormone fed seed that expands towards the brightest of light it can see—and that which follows is truly unique, connections tremble and then become weak. The lesson is clear, you cannot fail to see, how you effect others, and the way that they see.

Declaration of Independence

So, I deleted all "social networks" in an attempts to escape from the drama I was otherwise experiencing.

It has worked for the most part except in that I have not deleted he who shall remain nameless' phone number and keep finding the most ridiculous reasons to contact him. Which is not the wisest must compassionate thing I could be doing with my time... Of course, it's ever so translucent.

I want to fuck.

But I don't want to be the cause for bad

A bastardly act

So, I did the deed with he who shall remain nameless former *and possibly current* lover of she who shall remain nameless.

These two nameless characters (although, I suppose mostly he who shall remain nameless was the antagonist) spent the last few months insinuating they were prepared to do the no pants dance together and with me.

Now, I'm not going to lie... he who shall remain nameless and she who shall remain nameless are both very attractive human specimens. Funny enough I knew of she who shall remain nameless as a "cute human specimen" before I knew he who shall remain nameless even existed!

But, low and behold, the three-party no pants dance got postponed, and finally canceled.

He and she who remain to be remaining nameless actually broke up over their own misunderstandings with each others wants and needs in such a multi-player game.

Now, we all know I've never been one to be honorable, so although I love she who shall remain nameless, and respect her, and adore her... I still allowed all paths to lead to the dirty deed...

It's hard to regret. I regret the consequences more than I regret the action.

In terms of "morally good human terms" that is a horrible statement to make. Bad human. Be conscious of how your actions effect other people and do your best NOT to effect people in a negative way, dammit.

I wonder what happened in he who shall remain nameless' mind. Was I the antagonist of this indiscretion? Is it possible that I don't even know the answer to that question?

Part of me really wants to portray he who shall remain nameless in a poor light... as a taker, not a giver.

I don't want to portray anyone in a poor light, but it's my defense mechanism for those whom allow me to portrayed in a poor light when they know all too well that I have nothing but good intentions and poorly thought out actions.

I wonder if he who shall remain nameless told she who shall remain nameless that he regretted the act in the first place.

I wonder if there were tears...

I feel like I was cast as the bad guy...again.

After all that obsessing over not stepping on toes it was mere hours after the two of them each (separately) told me how "sweet" I was for putting up with the situation that I had to go ahead and fuck it all up with a fuck.

A good fuck, granted, but a fucked up fuck.

I don't know where my loyalties belong... to my vagina, or my friends.

Oh, shit... wait... that's fucked up.

Oh, suffer

I've heard of people who spend their whole miserable lives searching for love. Wishing and hoping for a heart to hold. I've got the opposite problem. It shouldn't be a problem, it's only a problem because people are selfish — they cannot stand to share love.

So, here I am. In love with multiples. (And, it's more than two, or it wouldn't be a problem)

Zach, Trev, Adam, Shawn, Jeremy, John,...and the inevitable future etc. to come.